Well here come some of those details that some of you are interested in, and some of you would like to skip over. Main subject of this post; Sperm. But not just any sperm, swimming sperm. That is the main (earthly) factor needed for this trip to be a success. Obviously you know that we believe that God is bigger then the things of this world, like the need for sperm. He can do anything he wants. We could be pregnant as we speak if he wishes it. But for now, we know that God wants us to come here to Thailand to do a few things that will result, hopefully, in a pregnancy.
When we arrived here in Bangkok we were lucky to have free internet. First thing we did after telling people that we were here safely was check our email. I saw that after waiting for 2 weeks we had received an Email back from the Dr. in Chiang Mai. I had asked her to look at our medical records and tell us what she thought and make sure that we were not going down a path that she was not willing to do down with us. The email was hard to hear. She told us that Gregg’s samples only showing non motile sperm was not a good sign. She asked us to come to the Dr. office as soon as we were able to meet. She wants to do the Sperm Retrieval surgery as soon as possible so that we can see if IVF is even a possibility for us.
Now this is not news that should surprise us. But reading that we run a high risk of not even being able to make little Bowcock babies was really hard to hear. I had to really think through what I believe. I believe that God’s plan is perfect. That He is outside of time. That He is all powerful. That He loves us and has our best in mind. That He was not surprised by this information. But I was tempted to believe the lie that we should not have come. That we should not have spent this money to come to a place where we would just end up as tourist. But it was so obviously God’s timing to get the Email once we were here. There is no doubt in my mind that this is where God wants us. I can rest in that. When I was at my weakest point my mom gave me this verse,
Jeremiah 32: 17 “Ah, Sovereign LORD, you have made the heavens and the earth by your great power and outstretched arm. Nothing is too hard for you.
It was such a comfort. Just focusing on truth. Especially truth straight from scripture!
We will be meeting with the Dr. Monday evening and possibly doing the sperm retrieval on Tuesday morning. Please pray for Gregg, this is not going to be a comfortable recovery. Also please pray that is all that we do, think, and say ,that it would be pleasing to the Lord. For that is our desire through this whole trip. We want to be different. We do not want to focus on the earthly things but on the eternal. I do have to say, even though it is hard to think of the Eternal and not of the temporal, it does make the sad things much easier to deal with.
Thank you Father for your grace and mercy. Thank you for loving us and giving us the tools we need to honor you. Thank you for growing our Faith, we would not trade it for anything, not even a baby. We love you.