Colossians 1: 28-29 He is the one we proclaim, admonishing and teaching everyone with all wisdom, so that we may present everyone fully mature in Christ. To this end I strenuously contend with all the energy Christ so powerfully works in me.
This morning Gregg and I had the pleasure of sitting on the patio of the local Starbucks while doing our devotions. It was such a beautiful morning and we were soaking it up. Oh and I accidentally got a regular cup of coffee, I have been off caffeine for over a month now so we will see if I sleep tonight! Anyway, Gregg opened up, on the iPad, Colossians 1 and started to read. I was really touched by verses 28-29. I loved how Paul was putting all of his own energy and all of the energy that God gives him, to teach everyone so that they may be mature in Christ.
Every time Gregg and I think about our home we think about helping these 3 boys, that we love, to grow in their love for our savior and to grow in maturity in Him. This is our ultimate goal. Not for me to feel like a mother, or to have someone to have fun with, or to rent the rooms out for cash. It is a time and a place to grow.
That is also the goal with this whole IVF process. It could look like our goal is to have babies. But ultimately our goal is to grow in maturity in Him. Because we have this goal, the things that could be really hard to deal with, now have a different filter on them. Basically if my goal was only to get pregnant, then when ever anything came up to hinder that goal I would be really upset or anxious. But because that is not my only goal, I am so much less tempted to be anxious.
For example when Gregg and I were on the way to the hospital to have his surgery, we were able to pray with thanksgiving for fertility. Because it is bringing us closer to him, we are being matured. Our faith is being tested and proven true. The same thing with the shots of drugs I am now taking. I can easily be very anxious about what these hormones are going to do to me. but I am growing and I see that God is going to use this as a test for me. A time for me to grow. I have to toil and work hard to be pleasing to Him during this time.
One thing that this verse also brought up for me is the fact that this blog is an opportunity for me to proclaim to power and love of Christ. So that others can grow in their maturity in Him as well. I hope that these words about our goals and our maturity is helpful and maybe even a challenge for you. I know it is a daily challenge for me. But though His power, we are maturing.
Ok so what did we do today? Well after lunch Gregg and i spent a few hours communicating with friends back home. It has been really fun using Face Time on our iPod touch to chat face to face. Then at 5:00 pm our time we did our first injection of “Puregon”. Gregg was kind enough to do the injection for me. I am not afraid of needles at all, but giving myself a shot, well if Gregg is here I will let him do it. Takes the pressure off of me. I was thankful that it did not hurt at all. Well until a few minutes later, then there was a slight sting. But that went away pretty quickly. the funny thing is that I went giddy! I could not stop laughing. I have no idea why, but maybe it was over the excitement of this phase starting.