As we come to the end of our stay here in Thailand I am reminded of how big our God is and how much he truly cares for us and is involved in every small detail in our life. I am excited to see how God uses this time in our lives as we return home. We are currently packing the room and we don’t know what is in store for us when we arrive home. There are two things that could happen. 1 – we’re expecting or 2 – we aren’t. Humanly we sure can take our thoughts places that will cause us to sin, but we rely on Gods word through this time.
 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11 ESV)
As a response to this scripture, I am also reminded of another one about taking our thoughts captive and not being anxious.
 We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ, (2 Corinthians 10:5 ESV)  do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. (Philippians 4:6 ESV)
This whole medical process also points me to the true unfathomability of our God. He is truly incomprehensible. As the embryos were transferred into Kathleen, I thought about the mere size of these “babies” which were being put into her. The fact that these little forms of life, these 9 celled beings, is the beginning of anyone who is reading this page right now. At 9 cells these could number in the tens of thousands on the head of a pin, yet we recognize them as truly valuable. This is just one of the many things God has done which is great.
Even Job recognized the greatness of God at the lowest point of his life.
 who does great things beyond searching out, and marvelous things beyond number. (Job 9:10 ESV)
So no matter what the outcome of this process one fact truly does remain: GOD IS GREAT! He is truly the designer of all aspects of my life and my goal is to glorify HIM in my reaction to whatever situation he presents.
Kathleen and I truly want our friends to know that whatever happens, this trip cannot be regarded as a failure. Whether there is a positive or negative pregnancy test after our arrival home; our goal is the same, to glorify HIM in our response. To be angry, anxious, resentful, bitter, grumbling, doubting, jealous of others with children, to give up or have despair, to be harsh with others, or to have self pity are all sins and we strive not to react in any of these ways.
We stand firmly in Gods Word which states he will never leave or forsake us:
 Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the LORD your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.” (Deuteronomy 31:6 ESV)
We are excited to return stateside, for several reasons…but most of all we miss the fellowship of our brothers and sisters in Christ in our community. Less than 48 hours and counting!