I was so nervous on Monday as Gregg and I were waiting to see the Dr. for our fist ultrasound. I asked Gregg to please read me scripture that would calm me down. I was having a hard time focusing on Truth. Gregg read to me on of my current favorite verses,
4 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.8 Finally, brothers and sisters,whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
It was amazing how I could go from being so nervous to feeling so much calmer just from Gregg reading me God’s words to us. Then again that is exactly what I have been seeing so obviously through this whole adventure, God’s word is so powerful!
Once we got in to ultrasound room i started to get so excited and also scared to death! What is he going to find? Well this is what he found!!!
A baby!!! Yup, It does not look like much, but it is our baby! We are thrilled!
I also know that it is not going to be easy from here. There is still a lot that God needs to teach us, and it may come in the form of health issues or the baby’s development. This does make me feel cautious to feel the full excitement, something could still go wrong. This is definitely the place I am now, confusing sometimes. But I do believe that I need to be willing to love this baby and then also be just as willing to give our Bubble to God. It is easier to protect myself, but if I do that then I am robbing the God the opportunity to work in my life in this area. Does that make sense? I hope so.
So now I am window shopping all over Etsy for cute baby things to celebrate this life that is growing in me. What a special time we are in. And Don’t get me wrong, we are SO very excited! I love it when Gregg tells me to take a break, not to pick something up that is a bit heavy, brings me a glass of water, and especially when he holds me and prays for our baby. It is a dream coming true, a true miracle.