The last three days have been very full of baby making activities! No I am not talking about sex. Sorry, I can’t resist. 😉 So what have we been up to then? We started off with an early morning to the Fertility Center for Gregg’s sperm retrieval surgery. This should be a pretty quick procedure. They gave gregg the option of local anesthetic or sedation. Gregg laughed and said “Give me the juice”! I don’t blame him! Shoot, I would rather be knocked out for a dentist visit much less a… well anyway.
Unfortunately things were not as easy and Dr. Pero had hoped. Gregg’s procedure ended up taking a hour and a half! I was really having to fight the thoughts of worse case scenarios. I had to keep bringing my thoughts to God and the fact that His plan is what I want. So Even if this surgery comes up with no sperm this was Gods best for us, and I want Gods best for us. Thankfully Dr. Pero was able to get some “solders” as he called them. Unfortunately for Gregg his recovery would be quite a bit longer and more painful than we all had hoped.
The next day was my turn to get the juice for the egg retrieval procedure. Thankfully for me, and for Gregg who was waiting to take me home and on no pain medication, my procedure only took about 10 minutes. Dr. B was very pleased with 8 eggs, 5 of them being very mature. This was a good number for me considering that we did “Mini IVF”. I was especially pleased with this seeing that Dr. B had only seen 3 mature looking eggs 2 days prior. My precious husband took me home and we rested the rest of the day.
This morning (Sunday) as gregg and I were in bed for a morning recovery nap Dr. B called with an update. We have babies! We have 4 babies! Four precious little lives that we have not meet but love and pray for. Dr. B said that this was a very good number considering all of the biology and statistics. These precious babes are so very loved. My heart was almost jumping out of my chest. I have four babies!! I wish I could hug and kiss them and tell them how much their mommy and daddy love them.
I told Gregg a few minutes later that this where the hard part really begins. This is the time that I really have to rely on God and his love for me and my babies. Every baby that I have lost in the last 3 years has been a real loss. I have tried very hard to not let my mind go places like due dates and such with each of our transfers. It is a real defense of my brain and my heart. If I let my brain run wild I would make it out of this process a woman of joy. I would most likely be a bitter and sad woman. This is why I have to surround my thoughts with scripture of promise and love. The day is coming when we will hear if any of our babies did not continue to grow. This will be a loss, a very possible loss. Then the day will come when they transfer two of my precious babies into my womb. There is so many emotions and thoughts that swirl at that time. Then there is waiting period. Waiting to see if we are pregnant, if we still have our precious and loved little “bubbles” with us. Then there is time we have to wait to see if they are growing and healthy. My precious babies are so very very loved. I long to be with them. I long with all of me to meet them, to give them life.
I have been so blessed by the Lords words to me and the comfort and joy that they bring. I am truly looking forward to seeing what God has for us next and what he is going to teach me. Ill be honest I am REALLY looking forward to meeting these precious babies!! Man, God is so cool!
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